“OK, I’ve had enough of coaching and exams. Give me a break, would you?”
The irony of Fate is that things rarely ever turn out the way you expected. Take our pre-university-coaching-fever, for example – or in my case, prep for the SAT and college application. I’ve always thought that people become fiercely determined to study hard and give it their all when it comes to university entrance exams. That may be true for a select few people but apparently most people, like me, turn around 180 degrees and throw in the towel at this point.
Being Sloth and an ever-procrastinator, I still haven’t started my studies for the SAT – even though the subject tests are right around the corner. There, I confessed it.
Every other night, I go to bed thinking, “this is it, I’ll begin studying like a hopeless nerd from tomorrow onwards.” Ah, tomorrow… the day that never seems to arrive. I blame depression more than own self. I don’t see the point of studying any more although I know that I should. I am not a (plastic) pretty doll who can land a rich hubby and ensure myself an easy, convenient life. I’m not from a financially solvent family – I must become a self-made woman. I have no brother who can fend for my parents in their old age – it’s up to my sister and me to take care of them (in sha Allah).
Thankfully, I still have time to brush up on my SAT prep. I just hope, hope, hope that I will be undepressed enough to keep focused on my IOU and SAT studies, and leave the rest to Allah. Aja aja fighting!